Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-26006155-20190425222457/@comment-33745727-20190511123236

BlackfootFerret wrote: I respond well to constructive criticism. I don’t respond well to gratuitous negativity.

I’ve spent years trying to prove I’m a real theorist. And I really thought Steven Universe would have helped with that.

But did it change Ambassador’s mind?

No.

Did sharing credit with MatPat for one of the greatest secrets in Undertale, and sharing the story of one of my greatest mistakes, convince people that I’m not an egotistical jerk?

No.

Did doing what was best for the other Steven Universe theorists (minus Akeem) and leaving the fandom after setting them on the right track again, convince others that I really do care about the other theorists as much as I care about the artists?

No.

... Am I the one who hasn’t shown significant character development over the last few years we’ve been playing this game?

NO.

All I wanted from the beginning was the respect of the people I admired.

And no matter what I do, this seems to be an impossible dream. No you don't. You ignore it, again and again.

Why? Because to this day, you're sickenly envious of those around you, creating your ow n narrative of how they wronged you.

That's why stuff like this turns to negativity. You continuously deny us the chance to have our say, instead burying us under ridiculously large comments. When that fails, you just accuse us of whatever comes to your mind. Matpat didn't deny your theories out of a lack of explanation, he did so because he didn't want to kick the dead horse. The instant your theories came to light, they were debunked again and again and again. What did you do? Nothing. You just ignored it, and acted as if they meant nothing. As a result, the theories got worse, but you didn't care. You just kept bending your mindset, only focusing on your work until we got to this.

You may have looked up to these people once, but now you just demonize them, excitedly pointing out their flaws.

Do you think it's normal to archive every bad thing said to you? Do you think it's normal to hold on to angry comments for years on end, looking for patterns when you meet someone new?

That's not caring, that's obsession.

Throughout this response, you've written word again and again.

No.

That no represents denial. Denial of progress, denial of wrongness, denial of forgiveness, denial of consideration of all those you've driven away by talking down to.

Just denying, and denying, and denying. Without any explanation to why.

Your character has not developed, it's devolved. You've just got more and more narrow minded, lashing out whenever anyone tried to directly explain the holes in your ideas, or worse, not giving them a chance.

How can I respect that?

Don't get me wrong, some of your ideas work, but if you're going to pretend the ones that work do, how can I ever respect you?