Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-26006155-20190617222636/@comment-26006155-20190802113823

Ambassador, now do you see that I’m real?

MatPat was the one who first inspired me to theorize about video games. I used to think the world of him.

I made “The Final Theory” and “The Color Brothers” under my own power, without external assistance. And it was my fondest wish that MatPat would notice them, use what I’d discovered, and perhaps earn me a footnote in the effort of solving FNAF.

When he of all people downplayed the idea that FNAF made sense a month later, then refused to discuss the very idea of The Two Villain Theory on the Megastreams, despite the misgivings of his own guests and staff, I thought he was being selfish. That perhaps he had seen my videos... did not want my ideas to see the light of day... and made a point of rejecting them on national television so that people would only hear his name.

I was left completely in a void after the Second Megastream, wondering what the hell had happened. That nobody cared what I thought, or that I even existed.

I now think it’s likely that someone else had asked him not to talk about it. But at the time I hadn’t deduced things that far. I felt like my guts had been violently torn out, and my corpse had been left in a ditch, hopefully to decompose in secret.

Nobody’s asked me to do the things I’ve done. My focus has been on proving I’m a real theorist, which is why I delved into Steven Universe, Star Wars, Bendy and Undertale. So there could be no doubt about this point.

Perhaps I was hasty last thread, when I discounted the idea of working with MatPat. I’d been operating under a misunderstanding for years. And had anyone bothered to tell me what was going on, it might have saved years of turmoil. I viewed the fact that no one had reached out to me as evidence that something was terribly wrong.

But that’s what happens when people leave you in the dark. You don’t know what’s going on. And any sort of craziness can happen.

Which is why I try to be as blunt and clear as possible. And why I’m the only one here willing to take the risk of using the name of his main persona.

You can think whatever you like about me. But at the end of the day I want to be understood.